Hello, Bonjour, Hola, Hallo,
I could fill a book up with my life story and one day that might actually happen but for you my dear friends I think a quick look into why I started this page and how I hope it can help you is best.
Why did you start this page?
Well, since you asked, I am going through what some might call a dark night of the soul and what others might just refer to as a shitty set of circumstances and ex-husbands. I have been battling many demons, mostly the autoimmune kind and some of the anxiety variety. I wont dwell on these subjects except to say that one day not long ago I got up and despite how I felt and the things that were imploding around me after my husband walked out on me and my kids, I made a decision.
This wont break me. I am enough. I can do this alone.
I was going to stick to my plan of raising my sons myself and taking into account my physical situation, I was going to succeed at building my own business and I wouldn’t stop until I took my last breath. I would not spend one more second wallowing in self pity or being convinced by those around me that I was “screwed” or that I needed to quickly find a new husband. As good as they believed their intentions, sadly they were just painting me as a victim. Victim is not a word I desired to use to describe myself no matter how dark things got. So I got up and told myself “this wont break me, I am enough, and I can do this alone.”
I am not through the dark night yet but I see light at the other side of it. I found hope in the dark scary silence of being alone. I pulled myself up and realized I have always made a way when people said ‘no you need to do things this way”. I am here to tell you that you don’t. You can find a lifestyle that reflects your desires and be successful. No matter what your starting point is.
It is okay to go against the grain. Especially when your heart tells you it’s the right path for you.
I am learning as I go and I invite you to join me in hopes that what you see here can help you through a time in your life.
UPDATE: Since writing this about 9 months ago I have in fact started that new business and learned so many new things along the way. I have persevered and I look back now and read this and it makes me cry for several reasons. The struggles are not over and I am still in a dark fog most of the time but, I am marching on the beat of my own drum and I am so damn proud right now! I beseech you to challenge yourself even when things just plain suck and hang on for dear life to that determination.
If you set your own path and would like a guest post here or for me to be your guest please contact me.